so... it is a bright and sunny day out today, and i had tea this morning... which makes my mood somewhat tolerable. i've sensed this is a "good" day (relative) and am choosing to "enjoy" it as much as possible.
school is terrribleeee, and i'm doing terrible so i've decided to spend much of my week in the library studying to ace whatever exams come next. and keep my thoughts on schooool!!
and i've also decided to quit my job within the next two weeks and pay my last months rent...wow, this has been an interesting year.
i hate writing in journals, because they make me think sooo much, and i'm afraid to put my own thoughts down in a public place...which is weird, because i write a lot of letters. (whether i send them or not)
i'm trying to avoid talking about the one thing i think about the most, and it's really working so far.
lately i feel really vulnerable and desperate. anxious and depressed. but it's been a long time coming. but i will come out of this way stronger.
some things i've noticed:
karma really does exist, not that i believed it didn't before.
the more things change, the more they stay the same.
love is hard, hard work.
and that i believe in fairy tales and happily ever after in a world where that type of love hardly exists.
also, when a man makes a bold gesture, he's romantic... when a woman does, she's crazy. damn itt!
peace!
